It's been a while...

I feel a little bit in a rut. Same thing every day, no change, no excitement. Boring. This is the first post of the year and I feel like it should be filled with exciting changes or fun news; but no, none of that will be going on today.

I cant say that I'm sad, rather I can say that I am not happy. Not with everything that is.

I was fired from my job the beginning of November. I wont go into details because by now, its useless and pointless to try to explain it. I'm not sad about that. Just disappointed. After thinking about it, I wasn't happy there anymore. I was in a rut. (See the trend yet?) I started working full time at my second job and have been feeling just fine about it. Money is tight, no doubts about that.

My mind moves too fast sometimes and I completely over analyze situations, people (including myself) and end up feeling worse in the long run. I push people away, I'm a negative person when I think like this. I was called a downer last night from someone who only talks to me if he wants to hook up. Sorry for inconveniencing you. I don't like confrontation so I also told someone that I have to work on my own issues instead of telling him that he is a hypocritical douche bag. I guess I do have issues to work on but they have nothing to do with him.

In the long run, I guess I am just tired of being single and feel like I'm running out of time. I'm 27, not 67. Reading back, its obvious I am just venting. So, its time to clear my head and try this again.